Let go, Let God

As I taught Sunday class this morning, I reflect on how we want to do and have things on our own time and with our own conditions. To say you trust in God means that you must let everything go...fully. To stand on his words no matter how it looks or feel and to have that faith that God, and not you, is in control. We as human hate to give up anything that we can not govern. What a lesson, because many times I tried to fix things and in the end made it worst than when I started, Why is it that we can not understand or insist in doing thing our way in spite of the warnings.
Are you holding onto something that you think you can not live without, are you trying to fix a problem that is too big for you, or just refuse to do anything at all. I realized that God does not expect us to have a mind of a genius but a heart of a child and we should approach so.

Weekend

This is one weekend I was looking forwards to. To sleep in and enjoy a good breakfast but it did not turn out like I plan. I did not sleep at all with a sore throat and was up most of the night squashing hot water a salt in my mouth for comfort, did not work. Tnoya came over and brought me halls. It is nice when you can just relax at home, stay in pj's and don't comb your hair. We all need a day like that, one when we don't have to think or act.
Christmas is coming so fast and I would like to home for the Christmas, Nassu Bahamas. I miss my mom and sisters very much and my need to be close is due to a great separation in one who I thought was an everlasting friend, was I surprised. I still don't think I will do any decorations this year, I had a friend Cassie who gave me some really compelling reasons to do it but I don't know.
I am so thankful to have such honest friends who stood with me through it all.

Back to normal

Back in school and to hear the students talk about their Thanksgiving was great. I am so blessed to teach in a Christian school where it is ok to mention the name of God. My girls are gone, back to their homes and all has return to normal. It is quiet again, but I do miss them. I don't know how one can make it being alone with no one to fellowship with.
I have also decided not to do any decorations for Christmas. I am not buying any tree this year. I don't feel the spirit of Christmas as this will be my first away from the "home and husband " I knew.

Blogging 1 year already!!

I have just notice that my first entry was around Thanksgiving of last year since I have been blogging. As I look back on the year I have encountered major changes in my life. TNeill left for college, I am divorced, in a 1 bedroom apt. and trying to understand how are we to grown because of our changes.
I look as life dishes out so many gravels we can either sit and remain miserable in our despair or get up and turn those gravels into solid rocks. I have decided that in spite of the curves and bump I will move onward, forwards and upwards. I expect great blessings, open doors, opportunities that will propel me to another level. One that shows me how to live and enjoy the victories, to understand the defeats and correct the mistakes.
As this 2nd year of blogging begins, I pray that something I will say would be positive, encouraging and maybe life changing for someone.
"When given lemons, make lemonade"

A nice day

Thanksgiving was nice. TNeill stayed home in bed, she was sick and Tnoya and I enjoyed dinner with friends. It was nice to fellowship with old friends and just sit and laugh. It was nice to talk old stories and not have to worry about anything. A nice quiet evening. I love to be with friends who accept me as I am. Of cause Winston was mention, wondering where he went if any. I know he loves turkey and stuffings but he has cut so much people that he must have stayed home. How sad, no meal of thanksgiving, no friend to go to, no family how sad, how sad, but that's the "bed he made".
I am thankful, so very thankful because in spite of the hardship of divorce this year I am alive and have my girls and looking forwards to see what God has in store for me.
Ready, Set Go!!!!!!!!

My girls-that's Thanksgiving to me

Today was a good day, no work and both daughters came over. Tneill is home from school and Tnoya took the day off. Nothing is better than family and to spend time with my girls is the Thanksgiving I love. We go over to a friend tomorrow and I am looking forward to the food, I cook "nothing".
As life goes on, one can only hope that God will open doors to happiness and blessings. I know that God will do it for my girls, they are really good girls who deserve the best in life.

A new Thanksgiving

It is almost Thanksgiving, I am not sure how to feel as this will be my first Thanksgiving not as a family. This is one of many things that will change due to a divorce.I have my children with me but no longer a husband, we are not even friends.
Life is so different and every day a new challenge but I will make it, I am a strong black Christian woman who trust in God. I don't know what Christmas will hold but I guess it will be one Christmas gift less.